Wednesday, January 18, 2012
the first post for 2012?
guess nobody is reading my blog alrd huh..
Dear myself,
I am not happy. I don't want this to happen. Why are you so stupid to suggest this. I don't want to do this at all. Why do i have to do this. Its so hard to stand.
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11:16 PM
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Sunday, October 23, 2011
feels like blogging.
assignments are killing me alrd.
twitter and fbk are just .. lame.
lack of updates.
aish!!!
freaky freaking assignments!
ohh! and i wna watch paranormal activity :D
sien.. gotta do assignment <3
toodles
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9:04 PM
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Thursday, October 13, 2011
its been a long long long time since i blogged.
dusty alrd.
time for spring cleaning yo. XD
haha. college was .... speechless
life. sucks
everything is in a mess.
i wna graduate foundation yr asap
and get on with my 3 months holidays
i wna travel..
get my mind off hectic life.
so start saving now.
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12:10 PM
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Tuesday, May 3, 2011
Labours' day had never been
an important date to me. Its just another public holiday that i get for free duh.
But this year's was different, because I am a labour alrd :D
haha
its the first Sunday in the year that i don't have to wake up early for work
meaningful enough XD
So this is where i've been for the whole day
Tanjung Sepat pau shop
Lover's Bridge <3 i had a walk till the end of it with baby.
So proud.
i love this pic <3
So today was a day out with the family.. and my poo poo :)
Went to Bagan Lalang as well. Where our memories lies?
and it was pretty much a nice trip
We've never had a day out for so long due to college baby.. Sunday as a good day.
for me at least.. What do u think?
Appreciated that day much.
Went back to where we've been to back then..
memories
and the breeze and song of the sea? lol
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9:54 PM
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Sunday, January 2, 2011
2011. this is it.
high school life is over.
what i have now is a brand new year, with brand new things around.
what was 2010 to me..
it was a terrible year u can say. :/
idk.
it was the last yr i spent in high school.
last yr spent with my beloved friends.
i wished for it to be the best year of high school.
but well, things didn't really went well..
gained somethin and lost things too.
which was kind of a regret? hmm..
guess so.
anyways, just hope that 2011 will be a good year for me.
as 2010 is not quite a good one.. especially when its my spm year .. well.
forget bout it..
lets just pray for a GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOD year ahead.
what had past is past tense. even though im kinda regret and idk how to express. ==
its like i keep askin myself how can this happen.. lol
anyway, forget bout it.
and i wish things that happened in 2010 won't ever happen again in my life!
and in anybody else life!
well, except the good ones :)
don't see many of the good ones tho.
but
i don't care la.
i wna live a happy life~
so good luck to me. and everyone out there.
happy new year. :)
well, this would be my first writing of the year.
xoxo
taaa
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8:46 PM
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Wednesday, December 15, 2010
lost my mood to blog.
i have lots to blog ytd night. ==
nvm. will write bout it some other time
ciao
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10:46 PM
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Saturday, June 12, 2010
好多男生都喜欢认妹妹，听着妹妹哥哥长哥哥短的叫，心里异常有成就感。
可是，所有有妹妹的男生们，你们是否知道，这一声声的哥哥，把你自己女朋友的心都割碎了。
你觉得你们之间是真正的兄妹情谊，所以自然可以当着女友的面给妹妹回信息，打电话，可是你们毕竟不是真的兄妹，她那一句句的关心之语，让你女友情何以堪？
男生大多不喜欢把自己的辛苦，烦闷说给老婆听，因为怕她担心，于是妹妹就成了你最好的倾诉对象，慢慢的女朋友发现自己远不如你妹妹了解你，她会不郁闷吗？
而且你们之间就算再清白，在别人眼里都是暧昧，闲言闲语一但被女友听见，她会怎么想？
她或许嘴上说相信你，心里呢？
早就委屈得不行了。
再说你的妹妹，就真的把你当哥哥吗？
她或许对你早有意思，那么她就会在你和你女友之间挑拨，女人之间能听懂的话，你未必能懂，在你眼里，你妹妹的话似乎并无不妥，但你身边的这两位女性都知道，这已经是战争，而且你女朋友完全处于弱势，因为你根本不相信她，你觉得她在无理取闹。
于是生气，吵架。
你的女朋友到底做错了什么呢？
最后你给她的定义就是不了解你，不信任你，小心眼，不讲理。
可你疑惑女友为什么变了的同时是否想过，原因是什么呢？
或许有的男生问，那谈恋爱还不能与异**往了吗？
可以啊，怎么不可以，那请问你老婆要是也找个哥哥，天天当着你的面给他发信息，打电话，哥哥，哥哥的叫着，提醒他天凉了加衣服，天热了别中暑。你是不是早就疯了？
所以，真正爱老婆的男人就别认什么妹妹！也别跟身边的女生玩什么暧昧的游戏。请尊重你的女友，她远比你想象中的脆弱。
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10:52 PM
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Tuesday, March 16, 2010
its been MONTHSSSSSSSS since i last blogged.
hmm.. i wouldn't be back if weren't for this guy KAVEN CHOI QI CHAO =D
its march now =)
and that means we've been together for like 4months+ ?
its not long but its not short either?
actually its kind of short =/
what am i talking about. lol
crap~
hmm.. what to write [ i seem to add this line in each and every post though -.- ]
well, its just plain for baby that i am up here tonight =)
so baby, read each and every word carefully.
its precious XD XD
ah! lets make this a picture blog.
baby u don't mind me putting up pics of you when you're in lower form rite??
say nooo please~~
hehe
you know what
you're so cute la when you are younger -.-
but at the same time damn annoying XP
well, even now also you're still cute
IN A DIFFERENT WAY =D
haha. sometimes u can act like a big kid but sometimes you're just pure matured??
lol. blurry blurry me.
Have you ever seen people saying sorry to their gf after taking their first kiss?
LOL.
this guy do -.-
and i was like laughing like crap looking back at your texts. haha
and have you seen people went speechless and go straight to bed right after their confession
succeed?.
this guy do -.-^2
and this guy a.
every time scold me for not listening to him. XD
and somebody dk who ar.. every time i ask him to sleep earlier a.. everyday also got different
excuse one hor. XD XD
paint my love
this guy suddenly called when he was attending dinner and i go like =') when he start singing this song. too bad i didn't record it.
speaking of recording i MISSED another song today. ish ish ish.
ai shi yong heng
stupiak me.
speaking of recording makes me think of the dedications on the radio =)
thank you piggie.
oh just randomly pops out of my head
piggie is mine mine mine mine MINE!
shoo shoo wws, get your hands off my piggie!
jammy too. sometimes
=D
wahahahaha.
and baby, get your hands off wws hands too. XD
hmm wad else to write a..
nvm i am posting this up first
since this is a post which i think i should post a few days ago.
and hurm.. give my piggie semangat sikit to finish the work and go to bed early.
must get enough rest tu baby, but obviously you're not these few days =(
and hmm.. sowee piggie cuz i cant even help when you are soo busy with sooo many things =(
stupiak
and baby, i dig out pics of you when you're young in form1 or 2 or 3
wakaka. why so much difference with my piggie now huh?
you WERE cute. =P
compare the pic of u doing the same pose. XP
so different. no more cute image of you =D
hmm.. and baby.
sowee b'cuz i still ask you to imitate the gesture u did last last last year when you're alrd so tired
coming back from lagoon =(
stupiak square.
hmm baby, finish up ur work must rest alrd kay?
you still got camp for the next two days
and the past few days you were like so busy?
must be exhausting. =(
hmm nvm, think of the positive side.
you still have sunday to get some rest before school reopens.
must get good rest kay? i don't care.
damn should have make this post short.
nevermind.
im stopping here.
baby, go do ur stuff shoo shoo.
i'll be here if you're lookin for me yea.
mwacks
i love you <3>
Baby
xoxo
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11:53 PM
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Thursday, February 4, 2010
Anyone can fall
Anyone can hurt someone they love
Hearts will break
'Cause I made a stupid mistake
It can happen to
Anyone of us, say you will forgive me
Anyone can fail
Say you will believe me
I can't take my heart will break
'Cause I made a stupid mistake
A stupid mistake
Sorry piggie.
I love you.
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9:44 PM
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Sunday, January 17, 2010
这是一个真实的故事，从网上看到，我被女孩的行为感动了，所以才转到这里来。是男孩就一定必须要看，只用你几分钟的时间，看完后要深深的思考“责任”这两个字，记住你们对女孩说过的话，要对你们说的话负责！女孩看后不要哭!
走出赛区，看见大门口蹲坐着一个熟悉的身影，走过去看是诺儿。我拍拍她，她显然吓了一跳，见是我，舒了一口气，把一个保温饭煲递到我手里。我接过后，她慌忙把手藏到身后，可是我还是看见她手上被烫的水泡。
盒里的饭有点凉了，我问她：“等很久了吧？”
“对啊，你手机关掉了。”她噘着嘴。
“不是告诉你不要来嘛。来，让我抱抱，累了吧？”我有点心疼。
“我不来你又饿肚子，你一点都不乖，还挑食。”
我吃着盒里的饭，诺儿坐在我身边，紧张地问：“好吃吗？好吃吗？”我大口大口的扒着饭，说实话，挺难吃的，可是我能想象得出这个连袜子都不会洗的女孩是怎样笨手笨脚地为我做第一顿饭。心中是久违了的感动。我笑着说：“当然好吃了，你看我不是全部都吃光了吗？”
诺儿听了一脸满足地笑着，站起来就走。
“诺儿你去哪儿啊？”我问她。
“回家呗。“
“别急，我带你去一个地方。”我把她领进赛区，我从没领女孩儿见过朋友，更别说是赛区。队友们见到诺儿都好奇极了，“小嫂子、小嫂子”地叫着，弄得她脸蛋都通红的，队友们都跑来跟我打趣，我心里明白，我是真的爱上她了。
QQ上，我问她，“诺儿，你嫁给我好吗？”
她还是呵呵地傻笑，痛快的说：“好啊。以前别人说什么要娶我，我觉得特恐怖，但是我现在突然想嫁人了。”
嗯，诺儿，相信我，等我攒够钱让你做最风光的新娘，我们就结婚。
虽然我们队没有拿到第一，但对于我们这支刚组成不久的队伍来说，全省第二的成绩已经是非常好的了，所以我决定继续努力，非打第一不可。
CS的比赛越来越多，我也越来越忙，我忘了多久没想过诺儿了，我总是比赛到很晚，偶尔在QQ上看到她，她也总是很沉默，我不知道她怎么了。现在想起来，才知道是自己不对，因为我从来没有关心过她是不是开心，过得好不好。
一天， 她说：“你能陪我说会话吗？”
我说：“不行啊，我现在在联系比赛正在等电话。而且马上要开赛了。”
“就一会儿也不行吗？”
“诺儿乖。”
“CS对你来说真的很重要吗？”
“是。”
“那我呢？难道我就一点不重要吗？”
“也重要。”
“那我和ＧS哪个更重要呢？”
“CS。”我没有骗她。
很久，她的QQ头像都没有再晃动。
几天后，我看到她给我的留言：“我不知道能不能等到自己比GS更重要的那一天了，以后你要照顾好自己．．．．．．”我觉得她像是在说傻话，没看完就关了QQ。
几个月后，打完CS回到家已经是精疲力竭了，倒在床上一动不想动。这时手机响起来，我不想接，可它却响个没完没了。我一看是诺儿的号，就没好气地接起来说：“不是叫你这几天别打电话给我吗？你不知道我有多累……”
电话那一端传来一阵怒吼：“……你***还算不算是男人啊？”
不是诺儿，我一愣，“你谁呀你？”
“你甭管我是谁，明天诺儿出殡，你要是也算个男人，就来看她最后一眼。”
诺儿？出殡？什么跟什么呀？我还想再问下，电话戛然挂断。
忽然一股恐怖感占据了我，我拼命的回拨，很久才有人接起来，是个很苍老的声音，“你找……”
“诺儿呢？”
“她……不在了……”声音里明显带着哭腔。
我的脑袋轰的一下，难道，诺儿她真的出事了？
哪天，我看见诺儿被他们抬了出来，她脸上还带着微笑，可天使般的微笑再也泛不出光晕了，诺儿的朋友看我的眼神分明是仇视的，恨不得吃了我。诺儿的妈妈告诉 我，诺儿有血小板减少症，家里人什么都不让她做，生怕她不小心弄破了手指或是什么地方，血流不止。原以为治好了，可后来不知怎的，血小板又突然下降，心脏 功能也开始衰竭。前几天她突然精神很好，我们都明白那意味着什么，她说她想听听你的声音，打电话给你，可是关机，她说你一定在比赛呢。有人说去找你，可诺 儿不让，她说比赛对你很重要，她怕你生气，说着说着自己就哭了，我们也都跟着哭，她说肯定有一天你会明白，她比CS重要，可她等不到了……诺儿妈妈有抹起 眼泪来。 我好几天没打CS了，呆呆地看着诺儿的QQ形象，自从诺儿走了以后，我整个人好像被抽走了力量。身和心都特别疲惫。
我打开诺儿的QQ才知道，里面只有我一个人的号。
我注意到她的资料里有一个网址，打开是个心情驿站，有各种各样的故事，其中有篇文章的署名是诺儿。
“不敢想象，我就那么无可救药地爱上了他。我喜欢他的温柔，也喜欢他假装凶巴巴的样子，我想如果有一天他向我求婚，我一定会嫁给他。
我最近很不开心，我喜欢听他说话，可他却连话都不愿意和我说了，因为他很忙，他要打CS。他再也不叫我小傻瓜了，他从没说过爱我，也没送过花给我，可我还是喜欢他。
有一天我告诉他江边涨水了，他说以后陪我看，我很高兴。有一天我看见一只很可爱的小狗，他答应我，我们以后也会有一只，也叫诺儿，我很高兴。他说过几天陪我去看电影，放风筝，我特别开心，虽然这些都还没有实现，我相信总有一天会的。但我恐怕等不了那么久了。
他说CS比我重要，我没生气，因为这是实话，可是我很伤心，所以我偷偷地哭了。我想我还不够坚强，我做的还不够好，医生说我过不到下一个生日了，也就是*月*日，他还不知道我的生日呢！不过这也没关系。
我又虚弱了，刚打了几个字就很累，真的很没用。
我知道他有很多女朋友，这样也好，我走了，他不会伤心 ，虽然我是那样想嫁给他，我一直盼他送我玫瑰，哪怕只一支，以前有很多人送我，可我没收，因为那代表爱情，我想我可能等不到他送我的那一天了，所以我偷偷 买了一朵送给自己，我想我写什么他永远都看不见了，所以我可以随心所欲地敲打文字，我刚才打电话给他，但他关机了。那个讨厌的声音一直重复‘对不起，您拨 打的电话已关机’。我好想，真的好想再和他说说话，哪怕就一分钟，听听他的声音也好，我们好久都没见面了，我每天都好想他。真没出息，又哭了，唉，其实我 真的好放心不下他，他玩游戏时间长了眼睛会疼，我买了眼药水却没法给他，还有，他挑食……”
文章没有写完，想是她累了，结尾有一个flash，我点击Play，优雅的声音在空空的房间里回荡。
“静静地陪你走了好远好远/连眼睛红了都没有发现/听着你说你现在的改变/看着我依然最在你的笑脸/这条旧路依然没有改变/以往的每次路过都是晴天/想起 我们有过的从前/泪水就一点点开始蔓延……每当我闭起眼/我总是看见/你的诺言全部都会实现/我亲过你的脸/你已经不在我身边/我还是祝福你过的好一点 /断开的情线/我不要做断点/只想杂睡前听见你的蜜语甜言……”
Flash制作得有点粗糙，可我那憋了很久的眼泪还是滴了下来，画面的结尾还有一行行的小字。
“想听你说爱我，一声也好；
想接受你送的玫瑰，一朵也好；
想再多点时间爱你，哪怕只一秒；
可是现在，我的手都已经好颤抖，好想再见你一面。”
我一个人做在漆黑的房间里，终于大哭起来，我就那样错过了你，我最爱的女人，还来不及宠你，还来不及实现诺言，还来不及让你做我最美丽的新娘。
该死的CS，我连你最后一面都没见上，我真该死。
是的，我终于明白了你是最重要的，可惜你不能在等我了。
今年清明没下雨，我放弃了CS，做了白领，我一定会要你做我最风光的新娘。
“生日快乐，小傻瓜。”
每日礼拜我都会来这里，我只想和你说说话，纯白饿墓碑宛如你的纯洁。微风像你的发丝轻佛过我的脸，想念我那依然最爱的你的笑脸。
朋友、家人都惊讶于我的改变，我不抽烟了，不打CS了，不上网了，养了一只和你一样可爱的小狗，像当初我们说好的那样，叫它诺儿，我只想再和你说说话，再送你最美的玫瑰。
诺儿，我爱你。
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3:32 PM
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